Psalm 34:18 - “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit”.
In the midst of grief there are days where the only comfort seems to be our tears or maybe even just a song we put on repeat. While everything around us seems dark, we all want to know the same question:
“Where are you, God?” Many times it can feel as if we’ve been abandoned in the midst of an endless night. His presence is nowhere to be found, and though we cry out all we can hear sometimes is… silence. The Scriptures are quick to remind us that just because there’s no rescue in sight doesn’t mean God is indifferent. They also emphasize that even when we can’t feel or see him moving, he sees our pain and hears us. In the midst of depression, hurt, and struggle, the only thing that feels real is our emotion. Because our feelings are so overwhelming, they can often block our ability to feel God even though he’s close by.
King David was a man who understood depression and suffering, but remembers that the Lord was near to him in the midst of his greatest failures and moments of desperation and hurt. He reminds us that God hasn’t forsaken us.
Each day, look for something that shows God being gentle with you or offering encouragement (ie. A friend reached out, you got a good grade etc). Just focus on anything that’s a break and see if he is indeed close by.
In my worst days, since the Matt Redman song ‘10000 Reasons’ came out in 2011, the lyrics have become a repeated source of consolation in my life.
“The sun comes up
It's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass
And whatever lies before me
Let me be singing
When the evening comes”